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Wednesday, May 6th, 2009
2:49 am	I made an account on that one website everyone's talking about moving to like they always do. I'm not really sure why, except that I barely had to do anything. ...What do I do with this? I don't even use my LJ. (Seriously, February? I kept meaning to get to that, I swear!) Oh, I know. LOOK AT ME! I'M POSTING FROM AN ALTERNATE UNIVERSE! OOOOO-WOOOOOOOOOO! (12 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 25th, 2009
2:38 pm	Clear head I keep saying that I don't think I'll ever be able to have a lucid dream because every now and then I'll already be aware that I'm dreaming, and that idea always just fits in smoothly. And because my subconscious pulls some bizarre stuff with the "fourth wall" sometimes. I mentioned some entries back a dream with some dialogue that made direct reference to it all being a dream; I mentioned a while before that the time I woke up just to end a dream character's existence out of spite; I didn't post regarding the more recent dream I had that was actively trying to trick me into waking up early which I only foiled by figuring out that I must still be asleep. Which I realize makes no sense, but that's what happened. So my dreams have a weird relationship with reality. It's possible that I overestimated myself, or underestimated myself, because I've had a couple dreams now that I certainly thought were lucid at the time. ...The problem is that I really wouldn't put a normal dream about lucid dreaming past myself, so it's hard to be sure. In terms of lucidity, neither of them were very good; I had a hard time getting away from dream logic, and also getting the dream to actually do what I wanted. ( And so, rambling about dreams ) Current Mood: what is wrong with my mind (17 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, February 8th, 2009
1:25 pm	NetHack. About three of you will understand this. Note to self: at Skilled or above, Cone of Cold behaves differently and is not an appropriate solution to being engulfed (without cold resistance). Oars, that was my best wizard ever. Current Mood: pretty dumb (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, January 8th, 2009
12:27 pm	On milestones At long last, my mom has finally succeeded in getting me a cell phone. After further effort, I eventually managed to work out the matter of custom ringtones. That's really the only aspect of cells that ever genuinely appealed to me, but my mom can't understand why I'm so set on it. She also has no way to appreciate my determination to use Pollyanna as her tone, but that's okay, she can rest assured that internet nerds will think it's cute. Last week, my older-older brother was in town, making it the first time in years that the entire immediate family was together. Consequently, we played Hearts, which had been a holiday tradition back when the family was together consistently. Originally, of course, the parents always swept the games decisively. I mean they'd had a lot more time to get good at Hearts than the rest of us. Eventually the older-older brother became a competitor, though me and my younger-older brother kind of still always got creamed. But this time I totally won. It was awesome. Anyway, I, y'know, finished school last month. I'm 25, which is in my book too old, and it's time for me to start trying to find a serious job. Which is uuurgh at the best of times, and this is not the best of times, so uuuuuurgh, but anyway. Still, at no point thus far have I ever really felt like an adult in any tangible way... or maybe I should say I haven't felt different from before. It's a big and confusing world and I don't really feel prepared for it. But I'm basically an optimist in the long run, so hey. Current Mood: vaguely concerned (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, December 13th, 2008
4:02 pm	Whoops, I kind of forgot about this thing for. Two months. Again. Uh... Anyway, in news that should shock absolutely no one, Persona 4 is the best thing people have yet accomplished using Jungian psychology. At the same time, if Persona 3's overarching theme was peeing at every opportunity, 4 is about eating terrible things you find in the fridge. Either way, there's no sufficient excuse for not playing it. As for me, I'm racing through at top speed in vain hopes of having less distration from my finals this week. By the way, lakupo: I tried your suggestion about cracking eggs against a flat surface last time I was home, and all I got was egg on my counter. I'm just not sure I'm meant to make eggs any other way than scrambled. Which is fine because that's the best anyway, but still. Current Mood: buried in game (12 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, October 6th, 2008
6:31 pm	Diplomacy with the insect kingdom In other news, the English building's vending machine that gives me half-assed hot cocoa for fifty cents has been out of order for at least two weeks. They finally got it back to work, but now it appears to be infested with tiny ants. Initially I was prepared to drink the cocoa anyway, but it appears to have worsened to the point where anything coming out of that machine is going to have visible dead ants floating in it. I'm not sure I'm willing to be quite that complicit in drinking ants. ...But I really like that cocoa. :( Today I found a butterfly that I, though not an entomologist by any stretch, had to assume was at the brink of death, given its extreme reluctance to move at all. So I got it to sit on my hat. Coincidentally, I had recently thought of getting some sort of hat-butterfly; I was considering the far more sensible plan of getting a fake one, which surely ought to be available among craft supplies. So this was a serendipitous meeting, and despite its weakened state the butterfly hung onto my hat just fine. I feel bad for the creature and all, but it was also rad. It stayed there for a few hours, but I'm pretty sure it's dead now. Godspeed, little butterfly; here's hoping I made your last moments interesting in a way that wasn't too uncomfortable. Anyway, I'd hoped that its little claws or whatever the hell bugs have would stay stuck to the fabric, but sadly no -- maybe I poked it to check its vitals too many times. (I also couldn't persuade it to die with its wings open. Some animals just don't understand fashion.) A part of me is seriously considering just finding a safety pin, but that route seems gauche at best and possibly disrespectful. Or unhygenic. Ah well. I may remember sometime to look for craft supplies after all, but my late first hat-butterfly will be the best. (ETA Epilogue: After posting this and intending to go out, I was surprised to find the butterfly lurching around a bit with more animation than I'd seen from it. However it still couldn't really stay upright or do anything else, so I decided it was time to end this silliness. I brought it outside and stepped on it properly. RIP.) Current Mood: whaaat (Comment on this)
Friday, October 3rd, 2008
10:09 pm	In a city, people don't say hi to each other as they pass. If you're lucky you can even avoid making smalltalk with most cashiers, too. It's not so much an issue of niceness vs rudeness as it is of volume; living in Chicago, I could go downtown anytime and walk by a hundred people I'll never see again. It's not an effective use of energy. In the most technical terms, greeting people is an imposition on them, because while it isn't always necessary to initiate the contact, it would be much more unacceptable for them to not reply. You're demanding their attention. It's just an imposition that most people don't necessarily notice because they like the exchange anyway, or that they expect. But someone working a busy job, who might themselves see a hundred customers in a day, may not have the time or energy to talk with all of them, so isn't it almost selfish to insist they do so for you? Well, maybe going that far is just me. A book in my linguistics class last year told me that in some parts, it's required for a host to offer drinks repeatedly and insistently, and taboo for a guest to accept them, which situation as a whole sounds pretty hellish to me. These are rituals with no meaning in and of themselves; they could as well be a big sign that says "I AM MORE OR LESS POSITIVELY INCLINED TOWARDS YOU AND WILLING TO ENGAGE YOU SOCIALLY." And empty talk is not my cup of tea. Personally, I grew up in the city, but at least as much as that, it's simply my personality; I don't like talking. (Well, I kind of like talking to my cat. Wracking my imagination for the most awful things to say to an animal who can't tell the difference is a fantastic game.) I've been noticing this here at school, for instance that in the dorm cafeterias the employees are mainly very friendly and it totally annoys me. When I'm there I'm generally hungry and focusing very hard on which food might be tastiest, I don't want to be distracted by meaningless chatter! But what can you do; it would still be ruder not to reply. Anyway, that's all well and good for introverts and misanthropes, but some time ago I noticed, much to my surprise, that while I don't have the habit of saying hi to people I pass on the street, I do have one of saying hi to animals. That's... really weird. As the kids say, orz. Current Mood: strange creature (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, September 25th, 2008
1:58 pm	I use this icon too much Kirby Super Star Ultra is delightful, as any person of any wisdom should already have guessed. I'd say "putting off the five-page paper due tomorrow has never been so fun!" but that would be a lie, it's always fun. And now we know for sure that Meta Knight can also use the infamous Healing Makeout maneuver. See, this is why I laugh at him. Current Mood: delay (Comment on this)
Sunday, September 14th, 2008
2:29 pm	Last night I had a dream where... well, a bunch of stuff happened that's not important. Anyway, at some point I found that my little sister had, as such are wont to do, made off with my bike for her own use, and, somewhat less typically, converted it to a unicycle in the process. A really crummy one too. Also, for those of you who are new here, I should note that I don't actually have a little sister. (I am one, though, so I feel I have a good idea of their annoyances.) Anyway, there was a convention for something-or-other in town nearby that I thought might have some more bicycles for sale, so I rode the last legs of my poor unicycle there to see if I might get one, figuring that even if it was expensive I could charge it to my parents' credit card and maintain that the whole thing was my sister's fault. While there, I ran into freyr, which was good because I could vent to him and feel better. I don't remember exactly what I said, but I complained for a while about my sister "who only exists in dreams anyway." "Yeah," said Ven, or something close enough to it. "He seems like someone who'd be really annoying." "What? First of all, I just said it's my sister, so she's not a he. And besides, you've never met her, since she doesn't exist in real life." Internally, I noted with some amazement that I was breaking the fourth wall an awful lot; I was surprised it hadn't caused me to wake up yet. Then I went back to shopping. (I found a frame that looked promising towards the end of the dream.) ...This is why I can never have lucid dreams. It somewhat made up for the part of the night where the girl next door's amazingly loud friends decided to visit her at 5 AM! GRARGHHATE Current Mood: awake (Comment on this)
Monday, September 1st, 2008
9:13 pm	Standard start-of-semester post, with extra bitching Rawrgh. I'm having an irritating time settling in this year, as I've probably touched on to some of you by now. It's not the classes, but the dormmates. (That and the briefly debilitating cramps on move-in day, thanks body!) There isn't any one person/group who's especially loud but rather it seems everyone in the area is somewhat noisy, such that it adds up. But that's okay. There are two main problems: My room is built with old doors leading to the rooms on either side. While these doors are out of use and bolted over, they stil serve to let more sound through than a solid wall. The girl on one side of me has some kind of superbly awful respiratory infection or something that leads to some seriously nasty coughing/gagging fits. Now, look, I realize that if the girl is sick it's not her fault, and she likely isn't enjoying it herself. I have sympathy. Yet, at the same time, I've been awoken in the middle of the night by this horrid retching every night for the first week and boy howdy that gets old fast. I got this weekend off because she went home for the three-day weekend; we'll see if she's gotten any better by the time she returns. It turns out I get stressed fairly fast when I can't sleep uninterrupted, which I suppose makes sense considering how I usually am about being woken up unexpectedly. (I've taken to giving people warnings and apologies in advance if they have to do it.) Anyway, I'm surviving. With a fair bit more comfort-buying in my life than usual, but still. Whee Legos. So then, classes: Eng 358, Non-Western Literature. Interestingly, I have the same teacher for this that I had for both U.S. Ethnic Lit and Intro to World Lit last semester. Soooo I'm expecting more of the same. (And not just because she's assigned a couple of the same authors.) I also have her for... Eng 301, Women & Literature. I'm beginning to see a pattern in the classes this woman teaches. Arts 140, Drawing 1. So I never did have any better ideas for that random elective slot. I hope that this will prove to be a good idea. It's two hours long and I'm always apprehensive about classes that involve actual skills which are not my major. You know, I feel like at any moment I could inadvertently break some sort of esoteric Art People taboo and be chased from their island with spears. ...That came out a lot more condescending, and possibly vaguely racist, than I meant it. Enh, art people, they should just go back to their own country anyway. GComm 217, Electronic Desktop Publishing. I don't really know what the hell this class is but apparently I need it. Well, to be more accurate, I need either it or another class with that one teacher I have problems with; this class seems less interesting to me and doesn't fit into my schedule as well, but I just don't think I have the energy for another semester with that guy. Anyway, from what I can tell this class is actually about Adobe InDesign. You know, I'd heard they made programs besides Pirated Photoshop, but I never thought to see one such beast in person! (Acrobat doesn't count due to excessive hatred.) Now, as vaguely foreboded, I think I'm going to make an animated sprite icon featuring an Ogre Battle valkyrie. ...By which I mean I've already done most of it. Who or what should she be attacking? Current Mood: somewhat less irritated (8 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 26th, 2008
3:40 pm	Serious Poll: How reliably can you crack an egg without damaging the yolk? Current Mood: dormmates are noisy (18 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, July 23rd, 2008
12:59 pm	I can't believe it took me as long as it did to grasp the concept that Jhegaala was out and obtain it. That sort of thing must be reasonable cause for seppuku by my standards, but then again seppuku's not conducive to reading. It was pretty nice. Loiosh is the greatest. I want to see more of these Dragaeran mannerist murder comedies. But someone really needs to get on top of the confusion between dead teckla and dead Teckla, it's getting unsettling. Where do people get off charging $25 for a 300-page fantasy novel anyway? That's ridiculous. Curse my fangirling. I'm regretfully glad that I did pass on Trauma Center 2 for now, even though I've heard it's rather good. Still, there are yet more important games in my future. See autumn: September 15 - Dragon Quest 4 September 22 - Kirby Super Star Ultra ...Sometime in fall(?) - Castlevania: Order of Ecclesia I mean, it's not as bad as this summer was, but with some luck it may turn out very close, and none of those titles are optional unless Castlevania somehow starts sucking at this point. Interesting how it's still all sequels and remakes. Whee Kirby Super Star~ Completely unrelatedly, I have determined that sleeping with a thick blanket wadded up in place of a pillow is awesome. Consider it: you can arrange it around your head, neck, and even shoulders if desired, having a wide range of possibilities in terms of shape and softness and whatever. Also the end result tends to provide some of the feeling of having a nest, which is always pleasant. Or maybe that's just me and my feral tendencies, but still. Current Mood: easily distracted (7 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 26th, 2008
2:57 pm	I enjoy video games. I've been flakier than ever lately. Of course, it's related to this, which means, for those of you too lazy to click links, I'm talking about DS games now. (Also, I was very lucky to find both Pikmin games fairly easily as I'd hoped; haven't done much in the second yet. I think there should be some sort of special trophy for managing to kill over a hundred Pikmin in a day, and that's all I need to say about that right now.) I haven't finished Etrian Odyssey 2. On the whole it's better than the first one, though not in every way, I think. As far as balance goes, it's no longer dominated by a couple particular skills, which means there's more viability in a wider range of possible party builds (obviously moreso with the new classes added in) and that's an extremely good thing. On the other hand, it feels a lot more luck-driven to me, since reliable defensive maneuvers are harder to come by and also everyone misses a lot more. I never really had to grind in the first game, but I'm doing it for bosses in this one to buy myself a few more turns of praying that my bindings land. That sort of thing, you know. Also, I don't like the aesthetics as much. (Except the music, which is fantastic.) I dunno, the scenery isn't purely nature anymore, and the monsters look less like animals too, and the NPCs are mostly way less appealing. Except for the Trauma Center cameos, those are improved. Who ever cared about Dr. Hoffman anyway? Not me! Whereas Derek and Angie moving to fantasyland and becoming environmentalists is totally amusing. You even get to save Angie from getting herself eaten by monsters like an idiot. Quality. But most of all, it's probably just that I can never quite duplicate the sense of wonder and discovery and excitement I got from Etrian Odyssey when it was new. Ah well, this is still a good game. You should play it. Of course, it was interrupted by FFTA2, a much less ambivalent upgrade to a much more mediocre game. I think I like it. If nothing more, the writing is definitely miles better in that characters have personalities which are engaging and likeable, which is an improvement so dramatic it's nearly tangible. Where I am, the main character has even made fun of Vaan at one point, and I think that's something we can all get behind. The thing that annoys me is having to advance the plot to unlock classes; in some cases, it's a very long wait. I mean that sort of unlocking's perfectly fine in general principle, but this is the internet age where everyone already knows what all the jobs are and is planning their parties from the start. In other words, I'm impatient for my badass dragon-girls. Well, it's a fairly minor inconvenience. Incidentally, I've also picked up My Pokémon Ranch (my first download to the wii, whee) which hardly qualifies as a game, but I guess it's sort of DS-related. See, the thing about this is... in Pearl, once I beat the Elite Four I got fairly heavily into breeding and EV training, which means that the Pokés I ran through the game with are terribly obsolete. Even my loyal starter! So now it makes me retardedly happy to give these forgotten friends a nice little field where they can frolic and make friends. EMOTIONAL MATURITY WHAT IS THAT. Also they occasionally poison each other. And my mii rode around on a Lopunny, which seems kinda kinky. At this rate I'm SERIOUSLY TORN on whether to go for Trauma Center 2 right when it comes out, but I'm pretty sure I'll hold off on FF4. Yikes, games. Current Mood: enjoying self (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 22nd, 2008
10:29 pm	More Linguistic Gripes with the Internet A "run-on sentence" is a product of bad grammar whereby two or more things that could have been sentences on their own are joined improperly. It is not simply a long sentence. Indeed, a sentence could in theory go on forever, with as many clauses as one may wish, and still be grammatically apt. Perhaps not a good idea, but grammatically apt. Run-ons are a different beast. Okay. I will explain this once. In English, there are some nouns of Latin origin that end in -us, and it is appropriate to pluralize these words by changing the -us to -i. That's the end of the story. You don't need to try and do this to words ending with any other vowel and an s, and nothing is ever pluralized by replacing any ending with -ii. (Technically, it also doesn't apply to words that end in -us and aren't Latin, but that's an order of magnitude rather more nitpicky; people aren't generally expected to know etymology.) Now, I do understand that people often misapply this pluralization deliberately to be silly, and that's fine. For instance, "penii" is generally not used in a serious context (although I might advise you that there is a real nonstandard pluralization for penis, which is penes, and that can be entertaining too). However, I am seeing way, way too many people attempting to seriously use non-words like "analysii" and "parenthesii". Seriously, what the hell IS that? Stop it. If you really don't want to learn how this stuff works, honestly, my advice is to not bother with it. You won't get that many odd looks for saying "rhombuses" or even "thesises". This is a situation where the rules of the language say to do one thing while the rules of a particular word say to do another; I don't think it should be completely out of bounds to just go with the former. I may be in the minority here, but still. All right, this one is as much a biological gripe as anything, but there's word choice involved: antlers are not horns. They're not. I could explain why they're completely different if you really need me to, but for now, just accept it. Anyway, to make this post more accessible, here is a picture of my cat rolling around in dirt. Look at that belly! I've been taking him outside on a harness occasionally lately. I thought of trying this years ago, but back then he refused to move when the harness was on him, as cats are wont to do. I just kind of randomly tried it more recently and apparently he spontaneously decided harnesses are okay all on his own at some point. I'm still trying not to do it too often, because it makes him whine about wanting to go outside more, but it is entertaining. He spends most of these excursions either rolling around as pictured or trying to eat random plants. Also, I'm very curious about what would happen if a strange human approached. Accordingly, the picture links to an entire gallery of him rolling around in various spots. He really likes rolling. Current Mood: linguistic (14 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 17th, 2008
4:32 pm	I dreamed that I was fighting with my family. I don't remember what about, but I assure you they were being big jerks. At the end, I was arguing specifically with my brother, who was especially obnoxious. So, to spite him, I woke up, knowing that when the dream ended he would cease to exist. ...Don't mess with me in dreams, kids. Current Mood: weirdly amused (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, June 10th, 2008
7:25 pm	Qualities of life Summer has myriad small pleasant things to do. Let's see what's up these days. My subconscious is once again teasing me because I can't have a snake. Seriously, I have dreams involving that theme way too much. It is compounded by being bored at work with internet access, allowing me no end of informatin and pictures. (Really now, how can anyone look at rosy boas and still think snakes aren't cute?! I don't understand people.) The last time this happened, I ended up breeding and raising an Arbok to work it out. ... ...Has anyone got a Seviper? I dragged my bicycle out of the basement and fixed it up a little, since not being touched for some four years tends to show. (I have learned the awesome secret to removing rust from chrome! It's foil, who knew!) There are all sorts of reasons this is a good idea. Being completely dependent on people who drive is inconvenient for everyone and expensive for them, the moreso since my brother's car got stolen a few months back. More importantly, I really hate walking, whereas riding a bike is totally fun -- especially after not having done it in a while. Did I ever name this bike? I don't think so, but that seems odd of me, considering that I name everything and that I treasured this loyal steed of mine highly for a couple years. Also, I need to learn the art of riding it in a skirt. That whole affair seems dubious to me, but allegedly it can be done, and I don't like shorts. I don't CARE how comfy and easy to wear they supposedly are. Anyway, it works well in combination with having a job. A little bit of money and a little bit of freedom together exceed the sum of their parts by a wide margin. F!S reminded me how much I like icons. Additionally, I'm a whore. You know, the last time this account was paid, you could only have ten icons at most ever. I can work a Pokemon reference into this one too, but I won't. Maybe I should put in the effort of dragging out the old Servbot mood theme sometime too. Well that was a whole lot easier than I'd anticipated. I'm starting to get... sort of reluctantly enthusiastic about Persona 4. What is this?! Like, I know who the characters are and stuff, and I'm praying that the guy with the hat isn't boring because he's so adorable, which means I'm developing investment in a character that doesn't even have a name yet (or a gender, according to some people). Speaking of the above, I'm strongly tempted to make an icon. I haven't paid this kind of attention to a game before its release in so many years. You people are a bad good bad influence on me. This test is kinda crummy. It's exactly the same content as every other instance of that silly Myers-Briggs stuff, except in this case all the questions are lumped together to create particularly sweeping generalizations. This profile does fit me, I guess... except for that "has a very successful academic career" part. Heh. Current Mood: indolent (15 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, June 5th, 2008
3:05 pm	Questionable It occurs to me that I've got new people on my flist these days, especially if you use a lenient definition of "these days," and not only do I not post much, I don't talk much about myself when I do. Except whining about school. Also, I'm not sure I've ever done any of those interview-type meme things. Bah, memes. And of course, most importantly, I'm bored at work. Therefore, friends, I invite you: ask me questions. About anything, I don't care. I'll attempt to answer whatever. Incidentally, I've also made an attempt to clean up said flist lately. I tried to mainly remove people who don't use their journals, or who I've had on there for like three years and have still never interacted with on or off LJ, or who post large uncut pictures regularly of stuff I honestly don't care about. Anyway I would not be the least bit surprised to learn that I've removed someone I oughtn't have, so if you feel that's you, please lemme know. Maybe someday I'll also get around to all those silly comms I joined in my youth and then defriended but was too lazy to actually leave. Current Mood: at work (for now) (39 Comments |Comment on this)
Thursday, May 29th, 2008
3:07 pm	Practical Biology Lesson of the Day This post is about kitty cats. I like kitty cats. ( Half of what I post is tl;dr, don't you expect it by now? ) Current Mood: immature (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Saturday, May 10th, 2008
1:06 am	Oh my god. You know what's slowly dawning on me? June 17 - Etrian Odyssey 2 June 24 - FFTA2 July 1 - Trauma Center 2 July 22 - FF4 DS Rumored sometime in August maybe? September 16 :( - Dragon Quest 4 DS It's been a dry year for the DS I love more than salt, and now THIS?! M-my poor money... Plus, I still have a Wii to outfit, not only with its own games but all the GC titles I never got to play. I don't know how I'm going to do this, but it's gonna be the rockingest summer ever. Current Mood: whoa (16 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 7th, 2008
10:39 am	Nerdy Question of the Day Is it appropriate to refer to a male individual of a humanoid but non-human intelligent species as a man? I would've made this a properly binary poll if I could still do that. I want knee-jerk answers followed by discussion, ideally. But knock yourselves out on it however you like. ...P.S. EGGS AGAIN god why am I addicted damn you. Current Mood: running on caffeine alone (9 Comments |Comment on this)